I hope everythin will be fine

Being in love is a special feeling....
This special feeling shape my heart and form the world within me...
I have never been in love so deeply before...
Never can i describe this special feeling...
Because even i myself doesn't know what it is....
guess it is all the same to every individual having in love...
Love....
Is like a miracle....
Its is a miracle to meet you out of millions of people...
It is a gift to be able to be in love......
It is a pleasure to have someone loving me....
It love that reveal my true feelings....

I am not someone who like to let others know my feelings....
Everything or any problems i like to handle it myself...
But having you with me..
Makes me feel that you are someone i can share my feelings with...
You are someone I can talk my heart out...
You are someone who will give me strength if i m ever feeling weak..

I felt grateful to have you with me...
really appreciate you for being here with me...
and i promise i will always be there for you...
no matter how much you needed me...
i do mean what i meant...
i am always serious when i say this..

I really trust you whenever you told me something...
I also didnt want to tell any lies to you..
because i do see the important of being truthful..
and to trust one another in a relationship...
Sometimes i know it hard to trust for both me and you...
thats why i think... trust and honesty always happen together...
both need to be honest in a relation...
and both should give the other strength to trust..
and both should learn to trust one another..

I cant fully calm myself down...
Not that i will get angry or mad...
But my heart is very confuse... afraid and.. worry...
Not that I am a weak guy...
But i guess everyone will definitely reveal their true self when face with love...
True feelings... Worries... Happiness...Sadness...
when someone is in love...

i felt so lonely here..
like there isnt one person that i can talk my heart with..
ya.. frens.. but they arent any frens that i can talk my heart out...
not that i dun mix around.. but just no one trustable...

Being in love...
makes me feel happiness.. true happiness...
that i never feel b4...
ya... i am happy when with frens.. and family...
but.. its so different when being happy with someone you love...
I remember myself smiling so cheerfully...
whenever i think of us...
I remember myself seeing in the mirror....
and realise how happy i am...
but i do cry so much being in love...
even now when i am writing this...

Its 1013am in malaysia now and i know you should be in car already...
and i am so worry bout your back whether its still itchy or not....
and your fingers.... they will crack whenever you are in coll...
i know i worry too much and you definitely know how to take care of yourself...
but why didnt you reply me....
just to let me know how are you....
:( i am worry...

ya...you are right...
i am afraid that you might run away...
afraid of losing you... someone who meant so much to me ...
i am not being possessive or trying to control you...
but hope that you know how much you stand in my heart...
Why didnt you reply me? is it me being not understandin?
are you busyin preparing.. eating.. or
is it mummy in the car that its hard for you to reply me?
Are there really nothin between us these 2 days?
Am i really worryin too much?
Is there anythin that you are hiding from me?
or is it your homework and the tireness that cause you to be like that?
I wanted to trust you so much...
and when you confidence me with what you said yesterday...
I really trust you for who you are...
But i just cant calm myself down...
I really hope there is nothin between us...

I am sorry to ask you so many questions last night in skype...
i think you know wat i mean and how it felt...
I felt really stuffed up.. really packed... really tense...
loads of questions running around my mind....

Maybe my worries cause u to feel stuff up too..
Maybe my reaction makes you feel pressure..
Maybe i should be more open minded...
Maybe i should learn to put things down...
and dont take things so seriously...

I can see that you are happy and appreciate this relationship very much...
I also realise you do care for me and this relationship very much...
Your smile.. your cheers and your tears :(...i am sorry to make you cry...

i think this few days.. i am putting too much pressure on you...
i dun want to make you scare of me...
i will calm myself down and dont act emotionally.. i will do it...
i love you.

I am not weak.. and didnt mean i cant stand up without love...
but... i know better..
that i shouldnt give up on a good relationship with someone important i love

you know....
I really hope you will...
suddenly...
tell me....
no matter what happen...
....
..
....
laogong...everything is alright... i love you.